After having an amazing, delightful start to 2019, I can truly say that last week has been very testing. This week’s blog is really personal because I am trying to teach myself and all of you how to deal with the shadow side of our heart, the area where grief, sadness and deep pain lives. I wrote about how we should start dealing with happiness and sadness as equal in 2019. But it is so easy to write but so difficult to practice that is why we need to keep up, so we can learn to deal with all emotions and not let our emotional body end up ruling us. The tendency is to numb ourselves to avoid pain, but by closing the door to pain, sadness and grief you also close yourself off to real joy.
One of my kittens was run over last week and I have been dealing with his death and my grief. Grief stricken I turned to my practice, I sat on the mat and went through all my emotions, all my mental images and thoughts, I cried and grieved but eventually I smiled. Then I starting reading about techniques and philosophy which could help me through this difficult time.
When pain, grief, sorrow, etc arise and we block them, they cease to be energy in motion and instead become stuck in our bodies, in our psyches, in our mind.
Three things happen as a result of this one we strengthen the pattern in our body/mind that blocks, avoids, or denies emotions, thereby cutting ourselves off from the truth of our emotion. Two, those stuck emotions have to go somewhere, and they affect our body in some way. (Possibly illness in years to come.)
Finally, blocking, avoiding or denying emotion and allowing it to remain in our body affects how we interact with life down the line. We’ll seek to avoid situations that create painful emotions. We begin to avoid life. For example my why have any pets since we will have to go through the pain of their death.
Our physical, mental and meditative practice allows us to start processing these thoughts, emotions and even blocks. Yogi Ji says that if we keep our navel point strong and centered (please read my earlier writing about the nabhi or navel point) we develop a stoic attitude to life. He specifically recommended bow pose and camel pose.
Having done a strong practice for the last week and a kriya which includes these postures, plus a meditation with the seed mantra SA, TA NA MA, I have been able to see my way through grief, to know it is but another experience, that I can take pain without it overwhelming me and swallowing me whole. If you can sit with it, it will pass and there is joy at the end of the tunnel. I promise.
Sun Poya 20 Jan 6-7.30pm Full Moon Gong Bath @Sri Yoga Shala, Thalpe
Mon 21 Jan 6.15-7.30pm Kundalini Yoga @Prana Lounge,60 Horton Place,Col 7
Tues 22 Jan 9.45-10.45am Kundalini Yoga @Om Shambala, 143 Fife Rd, Col 5
Tues 22 Jan 3.30-4.30pm Special Kids Yoga @Reach Beyond, Tickel Rd, Col 8
Wed 23 Jan 5- 7.30am Sadhana @ 9 Greenlands Lane, Col 5 (FREE CLASS)
Wed 24 Jan 3.30-4.15pm Radiant Kids (3-5yrs)@Om Space, Col 5
Wed 24 Jan 6.45-8.15pm Kundalini Yoga Class@9 Greenlands Lane, Col 5
Thurs 25 Jan 11-1pm Special Needs Kids@ Reach Beyond, Tickel Rd, Col8