Reactive or Hidden Self – Kundalini yoga 6.15pm Mon 30 July 2018

Reactive Personality ie Hidden Self

Over the last few weeks we have been looking at how we can be truly happy, to feel good about ourselves, be able to cope with difficult feelings and circumstances. But the biggest obstacle to all of this is what Yogi Bhajan named as the Reactive personality or Hidden self.

Firstly we need to understand that we originate from the soul which does not include any polarity, just oneness, which reflects true self. We incarnate into a Universe of polarities, where our persona and shadow self exist. Persona is the part of our personality which we project into the world, how we would like to be seen. The Shadow is the part of the personality which we keep hidden. For example if you are a very kind, generous person there is within you a selfish and mean side. In order not to be at odds with your Shadow you need to acknowledge both sides of the persona but choose to be kind and generous to yourself and others. Understanding that sometimes you need to put yourself first and look after your financial needs. Then there is no conflict between the persona and the shadow.

Within the Shadow lies the Hidden or reactive self. This part of us is created through experiences we had usually in the first 7 years of our life. Just like the little angle baby becomes a monster during the terrible twos, this reactive self does not die with childhood. It stays in the subconscious realm as we get older, holding on to its hidden agenda, undermining our ability to appreciate life, be happy and fulfilled. The reactive self is activated when we do not get what we want. In these circumstances we become angry but it is not just feelings of anger but the reactive mind gets involved, saying, why am I angry, I feel bad about being angry, etc. Adding layer upon layer to this initial feeling from the hidden self.


How to recognise the Reactive or Hidden Self ?

  1. Feelings of regret about the past, past mistakes, etc.
  2. When you begin defending yourself because feelings of shame, loss and fear arise. It prevents us from acknowledging our accountability for what happens to us in life. If it is happening to you, it is happening through you.
  3. We may be busy, our lives filled with many people, tasks and adventures but inside we are not content.
  4. The interconnection between the left and right hemisphere is weakened. The effect is often a change in voice and tone. We are angry, childlike, talkative, full of stories, sneaky and insecure.
  5. Feeling sorry for ourselves, life is unfair, living in our stories.
  6. . Because we are not neutral about ourselves we dismiss the hidden self and its agendas and do not believe the outside world is affected by our private thoughts and feelings. The ego and subconscious mind align with the hidden self. This now reactive personality based on unprocessed childhood trauma, creates thousands of thoughts, feelings and narratives to serve our hidden agenda. We react in the same way to all situations, which may not make sense in the current moment. The gap between us and reality increases.   If our habit is to simple react, or to react and deny we reacted we divide and fight ourselves. It is just like trying to see ourselves in a shattered mirror.

These are just some of the signs of the Reactive personality. When they occur the hidden personality is dominating our normal personality

So how do we deal with it?

Shiv Charan our teacher is very clear about this, he says when you observe the Hidden self, you have got to be very very firm.

  1. There is nothing to heal.
  2. Do not mentally react to it or start to analysis it or discuss it.
  3. Hit it with a Mantra. Mantra is like a tread, a diver’s life line, keep chanting, keep the rhythm and you will get through the waves of it until you come out on the other side.
  4. Have a tool box you can use when the Reactive Self arises, Inhale 4 exhale 1.
  5. For most people we will never be able to get rid of the hidden self reactive personality, only put it to sleep.

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Mon 30 July 6.15-7.30pm       Kundalini Yoga @ Prana Lounge, Col 7

Tues 31 July 9.45-10.45am  Kundalini Yoga@ Om Shambala, Fife Rd, Col 5

Tues 31 July 3.30-4.30pm       Special Needs Kids Class@ Reach Beyond, Tickel Rd, Col 8

Tues 31 July 6-7.15pm           Kundalini Yoga Class Shaunagh @ 145/5Fife Road, Col 5

Wed 1 Aug 5.00- 7.30am     Sadhana @ 145/5 Fife Rd, Colombo 5 (FREE CLASS)

Wed 1 Aug 6.45-8pm      Kundalini Yoga @ 9 Greenlands Lane, Col 5

Thurs 2 Aug 11-1pm     Special Needs Kids and Teachers @ Reach Beyond, Tickel Rd, Col 8

Fri    3 Aug 5.45-7pm       Youvolution Gong Bath – Jungle Beach Ahungalla





Kundalini Yoga level 1 teacher training 16th – 21st January 2014 at Villa Hundira, Negombo

About the Venue

Villa Hundira swimming pool

The start of our Level 1 teaching training began near Negombo.  We were staying in the wonderful Villa Hundira, a luxury villa situated on the Negombo Lagoon, which was just a 45 minute drive from Colombo (since the newly opened airport highway).  Villa Hundira easily accomodated our 9 students and 3 teachers, all sleeping in comfortable luxury air conditioned rooms.breakfast

Wonderful vegetarian Sri Lankan village food appeared at each meal time, lovingly prepared by the Villa Hundira cook.




Sunrise over the lagoonEarly morning Sadhanas, starting at 5am were a treat as all the yoga and classes took place in a perfect space, an elevated pavillian overlooking the Negombo lagoon.  To view and experience the sunrise was a magical experience and a rare treat.  We had the added bonus of a beautiful swimming pool for students to enjoy during the breaks between their classes. Thank you to all the staff who looked after us so well.  Late afternoon on two days we walked along the beach and finished off our day with yoga at Mary’s house, West Winds, which was another delight to our senses, beautiful sea breszes and stunning sunsets.

About the Retreat

We began every day with Sadhana, a devotional practice of Kundalini yoga and chanting mantras.  We followed this with talks and discussions on various topics such as pranayamas, meditation and yogic anatomy.

Stephanie planning her class

During the Retreat one of the themes we explored was Life Cycles.  These are the patterns which develop our mind, body and attitude over our lifetime. The cycle of consciousness  changes every 7 years, which means we need to keep developing our skills of being present and connected.  The Cycle of intelligence means that our brain upgrades how we process information every 11 years.  Finally the Cycle of Life Energy,  which means we need to change our life style to be more conscious of what nourishes our bodies during each age.   For example you cannot keep eating and drinking like you were as teen ager at 56 otherwise your health will really suffer.




About Shiv Charan

Shiv Charan & FionaShiv Charan a very senior Kundalini Yoga Teacher and teacher training, guided us during this Retreat.  His wisdom and understanding is so profound that the lesson he gave us whether by way of physical classes, gong meditations or lectures were pearls of wisdom which sank deep into our psyches.  He is the most extraordinary teacher and did not tire of our endless questions and even managed to fit tantric numerology and counseling sessions after dinner each night.  We feel blessed to have received teachings from him in Sri Lanka